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I'm in love. Haha. Yeah I know....I'm too young right? WRONG. Me and him will be going on 5 months soon. Funny thing is..I vowed to myself that I would never love someone, nor let anyone get that close to me that matter. I don't know, something about Carlos (yeah, he has a name haha) just diminished all of those feelings I once had for love, and how cynical I was. How do I know that it's love?? By the way he talks to me, addresses me, looks at me..sorry if I am getting sappy but I can't contain myself anymore. Looking at my past relationships, (which there were many) I see the difference between those and the one I am in now. Compared to what I have now, my past relationships are simply crushes and puppylove. Can I say that I'm in love with him without having any second thoughts? Yeah, I can. These feelings are new for me, and to be honest I don't know how to deal with them, so I am just going to do what I do best, and just go with the flow. I don't have any doubts about what's going on with he and I.. Yo Amo a Carlos.Well, It Has Been Awhile
Since living here in WA. I have grown up so much..I moved here with hatred in my heart for being taken from my home, Las Vegas to what i thought (and still think) is a hellhole, WA. Looking back when I first moved here, I had no one. Then I started highschool, my first friend being someone I will never forget. Coming to WA, I was a sharp piece of glass. Almost 4 years later, I have been smoothed out and refined. I am no longer a little girl, but moreso a lady with morals and values. Sure, I still have that ruthless side of me, the side that has a hard time trusting people, but I have learned to tone it down over these past few years..FRIENDS COME AND GO LIKE THE WEATHER..I have definitely learned that from some people that i once called a "friend". I learned so much from my experiences. I am ready to start a new life of my own without parental consent required..I don't plan to move back to Las Vegas either...as much as I call it my "home", it's not the place for me. I also have a new man in my life. Carlos Reyes. He taught me how to be a lady. I never thought I could love someone the way I love him. He has changed my life for the better and knocked some sense into me. I love this man with all of my heart, unconditionally. No man can compare to him. Well, I am out for the night, and God Bless you all. :]]
-Hannah |
